Soul, are we done yet?

When I started pondering meaning of life questions and soul questions (see my What If? post on the beginnings of that) one of the things that kept coming to me was the idea of seeing everything as an experience.  Not necessarily seeing it as good or bad but just an experience.  An experience to broaden your awareness.  Why broaden your awareness?  To make things easier.  To make things more enjoyable.  To make Life what you want it.

One of the subjects I talk about in the intuitive development classes I teach are Growth Periods.  Basically a growth period is a time of transition.  When you're releasing the old, to bring in the new.  Growth periods can be easy and fun or they can sometimes feel torturous and never-ending!  I think it is the lengthier ones that I started asking, "Soul, are we done yet?  Are we done with this growth period?  Are we done with this belief?  With this cycle?  With this topic of deserving, unworthiness or anger?"  Or any other subject matter you seem to have been tackling for the past 6 months, year, or more.

I've noticed a few times for myself that my life shifts when I make the clear cut decision that I'm done with something.  I kind of yell out to the Universe (not literally but really loud in my head), "Okay!  I get it!  You don't need to keep showing me (this or that)!  Let's move on to next thing!"  Mostly its because you don't want to feel a certain way.  We're creating our reality every moment so when we're fed up with the current reality, we want to change it (usually to something better).  I think when we make that conscious decision and heart-centered decision, magic happens.  It's as if when that shift happens, your awareness broadens and then you're able to see more - more opportunities, more of what's in front of your face (and it's probably been there the whole time you just couldn't see it).  And you couldn't see it before because your mind set wasn't there.  Or your alignment with your soul/spirit/higher self was a bit off.  When that shift occurs you get closer to that inner awareness.  That inner universe.  I don't even know what to call it.  The closest I can come to labeling the image I see in my mind's eye is an inner universe.

Then recently I've been having this thing that when you name or label something, it ceases to be what it really is.  That it loses its original essence.  The only thing we can do is come close to knowing or experiencing what it really is.

What if?

I started pondering meaning of life questions last week.  I don't know why.  They just started pouring out for some reason.  One of the things I guess I have been trying to figure out is: what is the soul, really?

I've read in many books and heard different people say that the soul is wanting to evolve and that's why we're in this crazy experience called Life.  But that got me thinking - why does it want to evolve?  Does it get something when it's done evolving?  Which then I think those questions are very goal oriented which in turn is a human trait.

So what if the soul doesn't need to evolve because if it is part of everything that is (Universe, Consciousness, Source, God, etc) why would it need... improving?  It just is.  What if it's just pure potential?  What if it amplifies all that's contained within the whole bodymind?  If it is purely consciousness or information what does it need more of?  Or what does it need to do?  Nothing, I don't think.  Why would it need to 'do' anything?  For itself anyway.

So what is its role in the whole grand scheme of things?  Is it there to help the human consciousness, awareness and/or evolution?  To help us see everything as connected and not separate at all?  So then we're more at ease and able to be in the flow more?  To know bliss?  And to know it for longer than a single moment?

A lot more questions than answers and frankly I don't think we'll ever hit the nail on the head.  Merely get close to what it really is about.

Neutrality

In the intuitive development classes I teach, I talk a lot about neutrality and being neutral when doing energy healings, massage or just in life in general.  Apart from being unattached to outcomes or not being emotionally triggered, I got to thinking, "What is it really?  What do I mean when I say that?"

What came to me was that neutrality is being in alignment with your Higher Self and in essence, with Spirit.  It can be challenging not only to connect with your Higher Self, but to stay connected to it.  We can be connected one minute and in the next minute something may trigger us and then we're disconnected from it.   Then it's just about getting back to that connection again and again.  The more you return to that connection the easier it becomes in finding it and staying there.

Once connected, for me, I really notice that I'm more of an observer with minor roles here and there.  My clarity is greatly increased and therefore can see why things are happening as they are.  (I usually notice this more when I'm driving!)  Noticing what is driving people (no pun intended) becomes more obvious.  I also notice this a lot when participating in conversations with others.  Noticing these things within yourself too becomes clearer.  The nature of previous relationships or friendships become blatantly obvious where you scratch your head in amazement, "Why didn't I notice that before?"

Where do I need to be to be neutral?  My 6th chakra?  My heart?  My 2nd chakra?  I've read and heard different theories.  I initially learned to be in my 6th and then started practicing being in my heart.  So far both have worked well.  I'm sure this, like everything else, will keep evolving.