In my energy healing sessions limiting beliefs almost always come up for clients and they need to be transformed because they're holding the client back in some way. Lately, I've been doing a lot work transforming my own limiting beliefs. It's always a fascinating process and how far this transformation process reaches to even the smallest things in our everyday lives.
Case in point - a couple of weeks ago I was changing the roll of toilet paper in my bathroom. Normally (or not so normal) I would always make sure that the toilet paper roll would be placed so the toilet paper would come over, instead of under. I was so adamant that toilet paper should be this way that I would change it not just in my own house but wherever I could - work, friend's or family's homes, restaurants, etc. It's kind of ridiculous when I look back on it. Okay, very ridiculous.
So as I was changing the roll, all my previous behavior flashed in my mind for a few seconds and I finally said to myself, "It's just toilet paper! Why did it matter which direction it was going in? What was I thinking?" Now it takes me two seconds to change the roll as opposed to peeling a little of the toilet paper just to make sure which direction the paper was going in and to be sure that it went over, not under. Of course, time isn't the profound impact that has occurred but more of the letting go that things need to be a certain way. If you need one thing or several things to be a certain way that will actually limit you and all areas of your life. Our beliefs about one subject are not contained to that one specific thing, it overflows into other areas.
Where in your life do you need things to be a certain way? That it has to be this way? Ask yourself why it has to be this way. If you decide to change it, notice if it is challenging to do so or if you have some resistance in the way of the Little Voice inside your head saying, "This is stupid. You don't need to change this. This is so small! How could this possibly be impacting you in a limiting way?" Indeed, how is it limiting you? You may be surprised what you discover!
Monday, June 11, 2012
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
Finding Your Center
FYI - probably the next several posts are going to be related to my trip to Santa Fe and the subsequent changes I have noticed since then.
In massage school, they taught a little bit about your center, your Hara. That while working on a client, to be coming from your center which would be located around where your 2nd chakra is, below your navel. I remember hearing that for the first time and I understood what they were talking about. I mentally knew what was being said and what that meant but until about a week ago, I didn't really know it because I had never felt it. When I was working on clients last weekend I realized during one of them that I could feel that my hara, my center, was awake. I could literally feel a power coming from that center. And I have to say it was odd but in a good way. It was odd because I realized that was the first time I had felt that. I have been doing bodywork for almost 4 years - where have I been operating from this whole time? Was it from an empty space? I have no idea. However, before feeling my center, I do know that I always have an intention for the client while I'm working on them.
I do think it is difficult to describe what this feeling feels like of coming from your center. Would I have still felt this if I had stayed home? Most likely but when? The following week, year or 10 years later? Who knows? I'm just glad it did. It's kind of like you don't know what's missing until you have it.
This center, for me, feels like a fullness but energized. A force that is leading you from this place below your navel. That there is a power behind what you are doing and it puts you in a more focused state, almost trance like but you are aware of what is going on both a small and large scale.
In massage school, they taught a little bit about your center, your Hara. That while working on a client, to be coming from your center which would be located around where your 2nd chakra is, below your navel. I remember hearing that for the first time and I understood what they were talking about. I mentally knew what was being said and what that meant but until about a week ago, I didn't really know it because I had never felt it. When I was working on clients last weekend I realized during one of them that I could feel that my hara, my center, was awake. I could literally feel a power coming from that center. And I have to say it was odd but in a good way. It was odd because I realized that was the first time I had felt that. I have been doing bodywork for almost 4 years - where have I been operating from this whole time? Was it from an empty space? I have no idea. However, before feeling my center, I do know that I always have an intention for the client while I'm working on them.
I do think it is difficult to describe what this feeling feels like of coming from your center. Would I have still felt this if I had stayed home? Most likely but when? The following week, year or 10 years later? Who knows? I'm just glad it did. It's kind of like you don't know what's missing until you have it.
This center, for me, feels like a fullness but energized. A force that is leading you from this place below your navel. That there is a power behind what you are doing and it puts you in a more focused state, almost trance like but you are aware of what is going on both a small and large scale.
Healing Weekend
I recently went to Santa Fe, NM for a much needed healing weekend for myself. I really had no idea what I was in for!
It was beautiful the entire time I was there. I believe that sometimes when we go through changes, internally, that it can be uncomfortable. It can also be easy and graceful but uncomfortable seems to be more common. The third night I was in Santa Fe, I was not doing so well. My body just seemed to be really sensitive to pretty much everything. I was breaking out in rashes around my torso and I couldn't sleep. I never have problems sleeping. Never. If I do, I know something is up. I got some sleep but it wasn't deep REM sleep. The only confirmation that I got any kind of deep sleep was I remembered a couple of dreams I had.
In my clairvoyant training, I was taught (this is at least what I took in) that feeling was not good. That you couldn't trust feelings and that they get in the way of being neutral. Neutrality is great, however, sometimes you need to check in with what you're feeling and be honest with yourself. Being in our heads a lot makes it easy to rationalize things when we really need not do that. So after trying to figure out why I couldn't sleep (being neutral) I finally checked in with my feelings. Where was I feeling it the most? In my gut. I placed my hands on my abdomen and asked myself what I was feeling. Fear. I continued to check in and go a little farther and found that I was afraid to fall asleep. I was afraid that if I fell asleep, I wouldn't wake up. The changes I was going through at the time (and still am to an extent) was really shaking things up for me. Not just on an energetic level and obvious physical level but at the level of my psyche. There were parts of me that were, in a way, afraid that they were going to be thrown away. And this weekend wasn't about getting rid of things - which is what I've been trained to do and is a big part of the healing sessions I do for clients. It was about accepting these aspects of yourself that you either a) didn't know about or b) exiled because you thought it was bad.
I remember this quote I read from Carl Jung, "I'd rather be whole than good." There is a lot of freedom in accepting parts of yourself and there is a fullness as well that cannot be filled with anything else. I also knew intuitively that what I was going through that evening and the early morning of Sunday was leading into what we were going to do on the last day.
Over the weekend we did a lot of Shamanic Journeying. It was amazing to notice the expansiveness during these journeys. I meditated frequently, mainly to get clarity and guidance for specific areas of my life, however, in my meditations I didn't access what I did while journeying. The only meditation that came close to this was when I did an angel meditation (before I knew about journeying), calling upon a specific Archangel and had that angel take the participants on a journey and it was amazing! I loved it! After the weekend, I realized that is what I was trying to do. Provide others with a space to go on a journey with an angel or ascended master.
As uncomfortable as I was during the whole weekend really, I knew profound shifts and changes were occurring. And that got me excited because I hadn't felt that kind of uneasiness in a long time.
It was beautiful the entire time I was there. I believe that sometimes when we go through changes, internally, that it can be uncomfortable. It can also be easy and graceful but uncomfortable seems to be more common. The third night I was in Santa Fe, I was not doing so well. My body just seemed to be really sensitive to pretty much everything. I was breaking out in rashes around my torso and I couldn't sleep. I never have problems sleeping. Never. If I do, I know something is up. I got some sleep but it wasn't deep REM sleep. The only confirmation that I got any kind of deep sleep was I remembered a couple of dreams I had.
In my clairvoyant training, I was taught (this is at least what I took in) that feeling was not good. That you couldn't trust feelings and that they get in the way of being neutral. Neutrality is great, however, sometimes you need to check in with what you're feeling and be honest with yourself. Being in our heads a lot makes it easy to rationalize things when we really need not do that. So after trying to figure out why I couldn't sleep (being neutral) I finally checked in with my feelings. Where was I feeling it the most? In my gut. I placed my hands on my abdomen and asked myself what I was feeling. Fear. I continued to check in and go a little farther and found that I was afraid to fall asleep. I was afraid that if I fell asleep, I wouldn't wake up. The changes I was going through at the time (and still am to an extent) was really shaking things up for me. Not just on an energetic level and obvious physical level but at the level of my psyche. There were parts of me that were, in a way, afraid that they were going to be thrown away. And this weekend wasn't about getting rid of things - which is what I've been trained to do and is a big part of the healing sessions I do for clients. It was about accepting these aspects of yourself that you either a) didn't know about or b) exiled because you thought it was bad.
I remember this quote I read from Carl Jung, "I'd rather be whole than good." There is a lot of freedom in accepting parts of yourself and there is a fullness as well that cannot be filled with anything else. I also knew intuitively that what I was going through that evening and the early morning of Sunday was leading into what we were going to do on the last day.
Over the weekend we did a lot of Shamanic Journeying. It was amazing to notice the expansiveness during these journeys. I meditated frequently, mainly to get clarity and guidance for specific areas of my life, however, in my meditations I didn't access what I did while journeying. The only meditation that came close to this was when I did an angel meditation (before I knew about journeying), calling upon a specific Archangel and had that angel take the participants on a journey and it was amazing! I loved it! After the weekend, I realized that is what I was trying to do. Provide others with a space to go on a journey with an angel or ascended master.
As uncomfortable as I was during the whole weekend really, I knew profound shifts and changes were occurring. And that got me excited because I hadn't felt that kind of uneasiness in a long time.
Monday, August 15, 2011
Soul, are we done yet?
When I started pondering meaning of life questions and soul questions (see my What If? post on the beginnings of that) one of the things that kept coming to me was the idea of seeing everything as an experience. Not necessarily seeing it as good or bad but just an experience. An experience to broaden your awareness. Why broaden your awareness? To make things easier. To make things more enjoyable. To make Life what you want it.
One of the subjects I talk about in the intuitive development classes I teach are Growth Periods. Basically a growth period is a time of transition. When you're releasing the old, to bring in the new. Growth periods can be easy and fun or they can sometimes feel torturous and never-ending! I think it is the lengthier ones that I started asking, "Soul, are we done yet? Are we done with this growth period? Are we done with this belief? With this cycle? With this topic of deserving, unworthiness or anger?" Or any other subject matter you seem to have been tackling for the past 6 months, year, or more.
I've noticed a few times for myself that my life shifts when I make the clear cut decision that I'm done with something. I kind of yell out to the Universe (not literally but really loud in my head), "Okay! I get it! You don't need to keep showing me (this or that)! Let's move on to next thing!" Mostly its because you don't want to feel a certain way. We're creating our reality every moment so when we're fed up with the current reality, we want to change it (usually to something better). I think when we make that conscious decision and heart-centered decision, magic happens. It's as if when that shift happens, your awareness broadens and then you're able to see more - more opportunities, more of what's in front of your face (and it's probably been there the whole time you just couldn't see it). And you couldn't see it before because your mind set wasn't there. Or your alignment with your soul/spirit/higher self was a bit off. When that shift occurs you get closer to that inner awareness. That inner universe. I don't even know what to call it. The closest I can come to labeling the image I see in my mind's eye is an inner universe.
Then recently I've been having this thing that when you name or label something, it ceases to be what it really is. That it loses its original essence. The only thing we can do is come close to knowing or experiencing what it really is.
One of the subjects I talk about in the intuitive development classes I teach are Growth Periods. Basically a growth period is a time of transition. When you're releasing the old, to bring in the new. Growth periods can be easy and fun or they can sometimes feel torturous and never-ending! I think it is the lengthier ones that I started asking, "Soul, are we done yet? Are we done with this growth period? Are we done with this belief? With this cycle? With this topic of deserving, unworthiness or anger?" Or any other subject matter you seem to have been tackling for the past 6 months, year, or more.
I've noticed a few times for myself that my life shifts when I make the clear cut decision that I'm done with something. I kind of yell out to the Universe (not literally but really loud in my head), "Okay! I get it! You don't need to keep showing me (this or that)! Let's move on to next thing!" Mostly its because you don't want to feel a certain way. We're creating our reality every moment so when we're fed up with the current reality, we want to change it (usually to something better). I think when we make that conscious decision and heart-centered decision, magic happens. It's as if when that shift happens, your awareness broadens and then you're able to see more - more opportunities, more of what's in front of your face (and it's probably been there the whole time you just couldn't see it). And you couldn't see it before because your mind set wasn't there. Or your alignment with your soul/spirit/higher self was a bit off. When that shift occurs you get closer to that inner awareness. That inner universe. I don't even know what to call it. The closest I can come to labeling the image I see in my mind's eye is an inner universe.
Then recently I've been having this thing that when you name or label something, it ceases to be what it really is. That it loses its original essence. The only thing we can do is come close to knowing or experiencing what it really is.
What if?
I started pondering meaning of life questions last week. I don't know why. They just started pouring out for some reason. One of the things I guess I have been trying to figure out is: what is the soul, really?
I've read in many books and heard different people say that the soul is wanting to evolve and that's why we're in this crazy experience called Life. But that got me thinking - why does it want to evolve? Does it get something when it's done evolving? Which then I think those questions are very goal oriented which in turn is a human trait.
So what if the soul doesn't need to evolve because if it is part of everything that is (Universe, Consciousness, Source, God, etc) why would it need... improving? It just is. What if it's just pure potential? What if it amplifies all that's contained within the whole bodymind? If it is purely consciousness or information what does it need more of? Or what does it need to do? Nothing, I don't think. Why would it need to 'do' anything? For itself anyway.
So what is its role in the whole grand scheme of things? Is it there to help the human consciousness, awareness and/or evolution? To help us see everything as connected and not separate at all? So then we're more at ease and able to be in the flow more? To know bliss? And to know it for longer than a single moment?
A lot more questions than answers and frankly I don't think we'll ever hit the nail on the head. Merely get close to what it really is about.
I've read in many books and heard different people say that the soul is wanting to evolve and that's why we're in this crazy experience called Life. But that got me thinking - why does it want to evolve? Does it get something when it's done evolving? Which then I think those questions are very goal oriented which in turn is a human trait.
So what if the soul doesn't need to evolve because if it is part of everything that is (Universe, Consciousness, Source, God, etc) why would it need... improving? It just is. What if it's just pure potential? What if it amplifies all that's contained within the whole bodymind? If it is purely consciousness or information what does it need more of? Or what does it need to do? Nothing, I don't think. Why would it need to 'do' anything? For itself anyway.
So what is its role in the whole grand scheme of things? Is it there to help the human consciousness, awareness and/or evolution? To help us see everything as connected and not separate at all? So then we're more at ease and able to be in the flow more? To know bliss? And to know it for longer than a single moment?
A lot more questions than answers and frankly I don't think we'll ever hit the nail on the head. Merely get close to what it really is about.
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
Neutrality
In the intuitive development classes I teach, I talk a lot about neutrality and being neutral when doing energy healings, massage or just in life in general. Apart from being unattached to outcomes or not being emotionally triggered, I got to thinking, "What is it really? What do I mean when I say that?"
What came to me was that neutrality is being in alignment with your Higher Self and in essence, with Spirit. It can be challenging not only to connect with your Higher Self, but to stay connected to it. We can be connected one minute and in the next minute something may trigger us and then we're disconnected from it. Then it's just about getting back to that connection again and again. The more you return to that connection the easier it becomes in finding it and staying there.
Once connected, for me, I really notice that I'm more of an observer with minor roles here and there. My clarity is greatly increased and therefore can see why things are happening as they are. (I usually notice this more when I'm driving!) Noticing what is driving people (no pun intended) becomes more obvious. I also notice this a lot when participating in conversations with others. Noticing these things within yourself too becomes clearer. The nature of previous relationships or friendships become blatantly obvious where you scratch your head in amazement, "Why didn't I notice that before?"
Where do I need to be to be neutral? My 6th chakra? My heart? My 2nd chakra? I've read and heard different theories. I initially learned to be in my 6th and then started practicing being in my heart. So far both have worked well. I'm sure this, like everything else, will keep evolving.
What came to me was that neutrality is being in alignment with your Higher Self and in essence, with Spirit. It can be challenging not only to connect with your Higher Self, but to stay connected to it. We can be connected one minute and in the next minute something may trigger us and then we're disconnected from it. Then it's just about getting back to that connection again and again. The more you return to that connection the easier it becomes in finding it and staying there.
Once connected, for me, I really notice that I'm more of an observer with minor roles here and there. My clarity is greatly increased and therefore can see why things are happening as they are. (I usually notice this more when I'm driving!) Noticing what is driving people (no pun intended) becomes more obvious. I also notice this a lot when participating in conversations with others. Noticing these things within yourself too becomes clearer. The nature of previous relationships or friendships become blatantly obvious where you scratch your head in amazement, "Why didn't I notice that before?"
Where do I need to be to be neutral? My 6th chakra? My heart? My 2nd chakra? I've read and heard different theories. I initially learned to be in my 6th and then started practicing being in my heart. So far both have worked well. I'm sure this, like everything else, will keep evolving.
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
Spirit Communications - The River
a flowing river, moving around rocks, smoothly , effortlessly - it doesn't now where it's going it's just following it's own flow and the flow of All that is.
It takes no mind or care of who's watching or what's being said. It keeps moving. Picking up what it needs along the way. Some things find a different direction, with a different flow. Some get caught in whirlpools, continuing to go round and round until a disruption shifts it back into the flow.
Sometimes the flow rages and sometimes it trickles. When it rages, the dirt gets picked up from the bottom and floods the water in a sandstorm. It will not last forever. When it trickles, the dirt is more evident but it is still. It lies and waits for the rage.
The flow is constant. It knows to keep moving. It does not care how fast or how slow it is moving. As long as it moves it is happy.
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